it's the most appropriate and it still cuts the most. it's harsh and accurate and charlie hates the way it sounds after how real everything felt for those few hours that morning. even though she'd known deep down that it couldn't be possible, letting herself believe had felt right. now she's looking at neal and he sounds like it hurts him to even say it, so she nods and steps closer.]
I don't think you abandoned me. Not that first time, not at the hotel. [she takes a drink from her glass before she sets it down and folds her own arms across her chest and focuses on his eyes. he seems determined to hide his gaze and his guilt, but she waits, patient, as he gathers control or loses it again.]
It wasn't real, Neal. I wasn't your responsibility. [she dips her head to ensure he's looking at her and her expression is serious.] You don't have to worry about me. I can take care of myself.
[it's not entirely accurate. charlie's biggest fear is people leaving her. abandoning her. whether through their own volition or not, people in charlie's life continuously walk out of it and it's something she's used to. unfortunately, she's also gotten used to assuaging the guilt of those that've done so.
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it's the most appropriate and it still cuts the most. it's harsh and accurate and charlie hates the way it sounds after how real everything felt for those few hours that morning. even though she'd known deep down that it couldn't be possible, letting herself believe had felt right. now she's looking at neal and he sounds like it hurts him to even say it, so she nods and steps closer.]
I don't think you abandoned me. Not that first time, not at the hotel. [she takes a drink from her glass before she sets it down and folds her own arms across her chest and focuses on his eyes. he seems determined to hide his gaze and his guilt, but she waits, patient, as he gathers control or loses it again.]
It wasn't real, Neal. I wasn't your responsibility. [she dips her head to ensure he's looking at her and her expression is serious.] You don't have to worry about me. I can take care of myself.
[it's not entirely accurate. charlie's biggest fear is people leaving her. abandoning her. whether through their own volition or not, people in charlie's life continuously walk out of it and it's something she's used to. unfortunately, she's also gotten used to assuaging the guilt of those that've done so.
especially when she has no one.]