[Charlie inhales like she's about to say something, thinks better of it, then stops and looks away for a moment before going all in.
He's not just some nobody that she's met here. Of the experiences she had, he's been kind of it with the ones that matter. Sure, he'd walked away after that night at the bar, but he'd also just been there when their mutual... hallucination had popped up and it'd affected him, too, clearly. Maybe, just maybe, being the badass she was used to being around people wasn't the right move to make.
She takes another breath and tries again.]
Maybe that is what we need. [she holds up her hand.] Where I come from, none of this exists. No electricity, no manufactured clothes, no hot running water. [she gives him a smile.] No good food. People tend to think about themselves first and what they can get out of everyone else. It's why the world collapsed after the power went out. It's why I've lost everything and everyone I've ever cared about.
[maybe she's not strong, maybe she just fakes it like everyone else.] I don't want you to be sorry, Neal. It happened. It sucked. It's something I'm never going to have and, you know, for a while, I wanted to believe I could. We could. And I don't think it's a bad thing to be upset about it. [she shrugs and looks down for a moment.] I was.
[it's an impulsive move and she'd never do this were anyone else in the vicinity, but she reaches out as if she's going to give him a hug.] I wanted to check on you because it was something that happened to you, too.
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He's not just some nobody that she's met here. Of the experiences she had, he's been kind of it with the ones that matter. Sure, he'd walked away after that night at the bar, but he'd also just been there when their mutual... hallucination had popped up and it'd affected him, too, clearly. Maybe, just maybe, being the badass she was used to being around people wasn't the right move to make.
She takes another breath and tries again.]
Maybe that is what we need. [she holds up her hand.] Where I come from, none of this exists. No electricity, no manufactured clothes, no hot running water. [she gives him a smile.] No good food. People tend to think about themselves first and what they can get out of everyone else. It's why the world collapsed after the power went out. It's why I've lost everything and everyone I've ever cared about.
[maybe she's not strong, maybe she just fakes it like everyone else.] I don't want you to be sorry, Neal. It happened. It sucked. It's something I'm never going to have and, you know, for a while, I wanted to believe I could. We could. And I don't think it's a bad thing to be upset about it. [she shrugs and looks down for a moment.] I was.
[it's an impulsive move and she'd never do this were anyone else in the vicinity, but she reaches out as if she's going to give him a hug.] I wanted to check on you because it was something that happened to you, too.