Obviously. I’m not going to force you into anything you don’t want, Charlie. That’s why I haven’t suggested this before now. There was a time I would’ve, yeah, but I like to think we’re beyond that, now.
Not force-forced. [He honestly believes that, at least, 'cause it's hard for him to understand how far gone he was. In the narrative of his head, he didn't lose himself that completely.] But used the contract and your need for one to demand what I wanted? I'm not proud of it, but. Yeah. I would have.
But I'm not that guy anymore. We spent the last year fighting side-by-side. Miles is family to both of us. We gotta play this game to survive here, but I'm not going to take anything from you that you don't want to give. I respect you too much for that.
she remembers how he saved her when he didn't have to. more than once, really, but she remembers the seedy bar, being drugged, and how he'd saved her.]
Okay. Then I'd like my own room, I'd like to be able to earn my own money, spend it, and
ok - to the best they’ll allow the job and own money thing. If you can’t in your name, then I’ll give you back what you earn as an allowance. Spend it on whatever you want - I’m responsible for all the necessities.
Pretty sure what I want isn’t something you can put in a contract, so...I guess since I’m responsible for you, try to behave in public. If we’re out together, play your part like you mean it. Don’t kill anyone unless they really deserve it. Don’t assault any Dominants - let me handle it.
[He’s trying to come up with things he doesn’t think she’ll hate, but it’s hard, because most of this is such bullshit after their lives. But they’re deadly serious here. But he never wanted a submissive for more than some kinky fun before switching it up the next night. The responsibility to take care of her, though? That he’s actually good with. Which gives him an idea.]
Talk to me. Don’t make major decisions without consulting me. I don’t mean ask for my permission, but, since I’m legally responsible for what you do, I want a say and for you to at least consider my input.
[After a minute, he adds] I’d like us to prepare and have breakfast and dinner together - not every day, but regularly. And let me know if you won’t be there. I don’t need detailed info about where you are when. Just common courtesy, so I’m not waiting on you. And I’ll do the same.
I appreciate that, and if you want to, then you can, but it doesn't seem a fair thing to require.
A major decision = something that would change or impact one or both of our lives.
[Did he ignore the part about what he wants that can't go into a contract? Yes. Because it's not relevant right now, in his mind. And related to the breakfast and dinner thing she hasn't addressed, so. He's not diving in farther at this point.]
I asked around what other people had, just to see.
Something like: both the Dominant and the Submissive can meet their quota where they want to but if quota is not being met, they will meet it for each other.
[what she reads is that he's not interested in being possibly being forced to have sex with her three times a month which wasn't the impression she'd gotten when they'd done it that one time. she'd thought he'd enjoyed himself, so she's trying not to be hurt, but. it's there.]
[The response is enough to cue him in that she's taken it the wrong way, so he tries to clarify, without saying too much.]
If I wanted to have sex with someone who's obligated to do so, then I'd pay a whore, which you are not. What I *want* is for you to come to my bed because you want to be there, because you want *me*, not because of some contract or quota. I may accept the role, but I don't actually love being seen as a necessary evil.
If you want it in the contract, to make it clear or whatever, then fine. But if you need me, or want me, for that, you don't need a contract to make sure you don't get hauled off to wherever.
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And I get my own room. I know you have two, I've seen those apartments.
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But I'm not that guy anymore. We spent the last year fighting side-by-side. Miles is family to both of us. We gotta play this game to survive here, but I'm not going to take anything from you that you don't want to give. I respect you too much for that.
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she remembers how he saved her when he didn't have to. more than once, really, but she remembers the seedy bar, being drugged, and how he'd saved her.]
Okay. Then I'd like my own room, I'd like to be able to earn my own money, spend it, and
What do you want out of this?
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Talk to me. Don’t make major decisions without consulting me. I don’t mean ask for my permission, but, since I’m legally responsible for what you do, I want a say and for you to at least consider my input.
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I don't mind contributing to things. You don't have to do it all.
What do you want that doesn't go in a contract?
I'll try not to kill anyone and I guess I can play nice as much as possible.
What qualifies as a major decision?
[she'll address breakfast and dinner in a minute.]
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A major decision = something that would change or impact one or both of our lives.
[Did he ignore the part about what he wants that can't go into a contract? Yes. Because it's not relevant right now, in his mind. And related to the breakfast and dinner thing she hasn't addressed, so. He's not diving in farther at this point.]
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I guess we can discuss the bigger things later.
Breakfast and dinner seem good. I can't really cook, so I'll leave it to you.
[breakfast in bed is a thing, sebastian.]
But I'll try to be there.
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I'm happy to cook, but I can also teach you.
[He is aware, but he's making no assumptions about his welcome in her bedroom, let alone her bed.]
Good.
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Unless you don't want to.
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Something like: both the Dominant and the Submissive can meet their quota where they want to but if quota is not being met, they will meet it for each other.
However you want to make it sound official.
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[Then, a minute later, after deciding that 1) that's way too vulnerable sounding and 2) he's an idiot.]
Nevermind. Forget I said anything. It's fine.
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Whatever you want then.
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If I wanted to have sex with someone who's obligated to do so, then I'd pay a whore, which you are not. What I *want* is for you to come to my bed because you want to be there, because you want *me*, not because of some contract or quota. I may accept the role, but I don't actually love being seen as a necessary evil.
If you want it in the contract, to make it clear or whatever, then fine. But if you need me, or want me, for that, you don't need a contract to make sure you don't get hauled off to wherever.
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I was just saying in case you didn't want to. This kind of saved us both.
But if you want to, then it's no big deal. We can do that and not worry about it.
[making quota since it'll just be happening.]
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If that makes sense?
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Not sure it does, really.
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He helps me, too.
[she feels like she's oversharing but he should know that, right?]
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